Throughout my life there have been very few situations, where I found myself at a loss for words. Regardless of what’s happening, I’ve always managed to find something to say to express how I feel. Not this time….
How do you describe something that can’t be put into words. Angry…..doesn’t even begin to scratch the surface. Devastated….definitely not enough. How do you describe your feeling when you see someone get murdered in broad daylight so casually and without any regard for his pleas or his humanity. What kind of impulse compels a police officer, or anyone for that matter, to just decide to put their knee on a man’s neck for more than 8 minutes until they die, and then even keep them on for a couple minutes after. As if that is not horrifying enough on its own, the officer and his group of fellow psychopaths had absolutely no reason to use that kind of force. The man was unarmed; there were four of them and only him; his ALLEGED crime wasn’t even that serious, especially when you compare it to other significantly more heinous crimes committed by others whose skin color just happens to match that of the officer. How do we live in a country with this kind of racism? Racism that is so loud and clear with rivers of black men and women’s blood to on its hands. Did we not learn from our ugly history? How is this okay? How is it even possible? I have too many questions and absolutely no answers.
I don’t know what to do or what to say. It’s extremely difficult to think through the pain and the tears. I did not even watch the whole video. I could not bear to watch something like this knowing that this is real. That this actually happened and it’s not a scene in an incredibly gruesome movie! An innocent man was executed for no reason other than being black in America. I am in such utter disbelief, the only thing I can do is pray. Pray for America to finally wake up and take a long hard look in the mirror. Pray that we can start seeing and treating each other as humans. Pray that one day we can all feel safe and equal regardless of our skin color.
Will this day come? A day when the word Racism can only exist in history books? Looking at what happened to George Floyd, I don’t know how it could. But I have faith in God, as he is the All Powerful, All Just, and most importantly, the All Merciful.